ok, so i am learning a whole lot about myself recently. Ive learned that if i do something that i didnt do on my own and could really not care less, then i hear, see, read, ect...something about this incident, it bothers me so bad i dont even know what to say. Ive also learned that as much as i know people think i open my mouth, i dont do it enough, feeling get hurt, and i keep my mouth shut and cry myself to sleep on acount of these feeling bottled up inside of me. I dont think the people that say, write, whatever these things realize the affect they might have, and sometimes i dont think anyone will ever know. I think i should just sit back and shut up, but how can i when i have so much to say. I know i should, but the thought of ever hurting someone i love, is unbarable. I feel like crap, i just wanna roll over and die